I am absolutely gutted to have to cancel the tour next week. You guys, it has been the week from hell. Mother’s Day began with my daughter being unable to breathe, then after I took her to Urgent Care expecting it to be a flare-up of her reactive airway disease…
They called an ambulance and we went to the ER. We’ve been in the hospital since. Her blood oxygen was down to 71%, and all I can say is this: learn the signs of retracting. I didn’t know what they were; now I do; I will never make the mistake of thinking my daughter “is just coughing" again.
Turned out, she had pneumonia. Bad pneumonia.
This was a shock to us because she was currently on antibiotics for an ear infection. Plus, she’d been just fine the day before, riding her scooter and being her usual sunny self. Then overnight, it all turned.
Cricket is stable now, but she still needs oxygen to breathe. And every four hours, the nurses dutifully come in to give her an assortment of medications to keep her lungs working and healing. My husband and I are so tired, but I’m feeling a thousand times better now than I was on Sunday.
10/10 don’t recommend having to put your toddler in an ambulance and ride with them to the hospital. I can joke about it now, but holy hell, I am not joking when I say that this is an experience I will need to process in therapy at a later date.
Why am I telling you all of this? So that you understand why I can’t travel on Saturday as planned to kick off the UK tour. I’m not sure when we’re going home from the hospital, and now we have to figure out how to keep this from all repeating again. I will be terrified to leave her side for…well, a while.
That said, we are hoping to reschedule the tour. I know there were many of you making complicated (and even international) travel plans to see me, and I cannot express how sorry I am to do this. I spent all of Sunday and most of Monday convincing myself I wouldn’t need to…
But no. Cricket is still hooked up to machines and we’re still living at the hospital.
Please, please forgive me, friends. Please know I will do everything I can to make this cancellation up to you.
And please keep Cricket in your hearts as she keeps fighting to heal.
💚 - Sooz
Cue: flashbacks to my near death and week in the hospital after giving birth to her! The room even looks exactly the same! And guess what, that incidence was 3 years ago...This was NOT how I wanted to celebrate Mother’s Day or her almost birthday.
Big hugs, Sooz. What a huge nightmare these last several days have been for you. Please give Cricket a gentle hug for me. You’re all in my thoughts. 💖
Omg Susan, this is so so scary. Only the best thoughts for you and cricket right now 💜 please take care of yourself! I hope recovery goes well and quickly 😔